Hot & Cold

So the last time I tried to make a post, it all got deleted so I just gave up on that one. Basically things weren't exactly going right between me and Corbin. But for this post, I have just the opposite to say about our relationship. Things are great! He came up to see me on Sunday and we went out to lunch then came back to my room and took a bunch of pictures with my webcam. It was a lot of fun. We never do that but that day we took cute ones and silly ones. We were matching (not on purpose!) and my hair looked the way I wanted it to. Then it got even better when his mother called to say that she would be spending the night with his brother Coy while moving back into boarding school. This gave us more time to spend together so we went back to his house and had more fun ;) I have discovered that we can never make it through one day together without getting in some sort of fight or spat but we worked it out like we always do. Overall I'd call it a perfect day for me and him.

It still bothers me that our relationship is so bi-polar though. Either we're mushy and gushy in love to the point where we make people sick; like we're permanently in the "honeymoon stage" of our relstionship. Or we're in this huge fight where no one wants to surrender and we just play the blame game till we've had enough and then finally find a way to resolve the problem. Whenever I think of how to describe our hot&cold mess, I often make the comparison between us and Allie and Noah from the movie The Notebook. In it, the couple has an undoubted chemistry that almost instantly attracts them. But at the same time, the passion between them doesn't account for their personalities which clash throughout their relationship. While they have their own problems, they also have people around them saying that they shouldn't be together; that they're not a proper couple. So what determines whether someone is right for another? Is it logic and facts that others have a way of pointing out? Or is it that insane passionate love for a person that makes you a good match? After two years and with all that me and Corbin have been through...I still don't have any answers.

It's Been A While

So it's been a long time since I've posted. Which is kinda bad because that means I missed talking about a crucial point in my life...the start of college. Move-in day went well; I went to NC State's African-American Symposium allowing me to move in early and meet lots of other black freshmen that are in my college {FYC: First Year College...for the undecided folks lol}. I made a ton of new friends as well as getting the chance to reconnect with my best friend from elementary school Jasmine. We all hung out for a few days and before I knew it classes started and it's already been a week. Time passes by so quickly. But I'm making sure I take in every moment when I can...especially the bonding times with my friends. (like right for instance, we're having a study session..well they are lol) So far my classes have been pretty good, although I am having some trouble with my pre-cal work.

I have encountered one bad thing since I've been here. I lost my wallet! It was a terrible day. I got stuck at the mall right before I had an academic obligation for FYC. I lost my debit card, license, student ID and my bus pass...I thought my life was ruined. I have a little cash and all my stuff is in the mail. I went and got another school ID and bus pass.

Other than that I've been very blessed. For example, through the Multicultural Student Affairs I was provided with a peer mentor. Someone to act as a "big brother or sister" through my first year of school. Colton Palmer from my high school was made as mine. I felt extremely lucky with him carrying on his reputation for being the "big man on campus" making me the envy of my friends and allowing me to obtain free tickets to all Tally Parties (the biggest on the campus hosted by the Kappas). Speaking of which, we have one of those coming up this Friday...I'm super pumped! :)

I Could Be On Parental Control One Day

Saturday me and the bf were supposed to go shopping together for quality time and to take advantage of tax free weekend. Apparently his mother doesn't want us to be together and uses her control over him to keep us apart. So she tells him that she's going to take us to the mall; which meant that his brother would be going too. That morning, I found out my mother gave my stepdad my bank card to go get cash and forgot to give it back before he left for work. So my mom went to go get it from him and I told Corbin that because I wasn't ready to leave, to tell his mother to wait before they left the house until I got my card. He failed to do that and it wasn't until they were parked outside of my house that he finally told her. Then she pulled off and went to the mall without me...even though it was my idea to go the mall in the first place. So it takes me a couple hours to finally make it to Southpoint and had only been there for an hour when his mother called him saying she was ready to leave -_- I wasn't surprised. I walked Corbin out where we saw his mom heading for the car, not bothering to wait. Then litterally begins backing out of the parking spot while we say goodbye to each other. Much to her surprise, I "forgot" to speak and walked away.

I could tell she already didn't want Corbin to be with me, my mother feels the same about him but at least she's not rude or vindictive. Mrs. Cameron however... now every chance she gets, she makes a point to fuss at Corbin about how bad of a gf I am. She lectured him about how he always helps me but I never help him and all this other bullshit and told him that he couldn't help me move in my dorm TWO DAYS FROM NOW and we were counting on him going because he has a truck. She was mad that he had rearranged his schedule so that he could come with me that day and told him that none of that mattered. Now he has Thursday completely free and will be busy all Friday morning; not only can he not help, but he can't even come to see me off. How fucked up is that? My parents were furious.

I know this may have been avoided if I had spoken that day but I really felt that she was being disrespectful and while I'm usually nice to her despite her behavior, I was really upset and didn't feel obligated at all to speak. After all, I am an adult now, she said it herself. So why should I go out of my way to be nice to someone who's being rude to me if they're on my same level?